No Air

I was driving around this evenings running a couple errands, and a song came on the radio. I vividly remember the day Ammon died, hearing this song on the radio on my way up to have lunch with him. I remember exactly where I was on the interstate, and I remember listening to the lyrics to the song and thinking that it described how I would feel if I ever lost Ammon. When I heard it again today, I realized how astute that observation was. No air is exactly how I feel.

I feel like I can't breathe without him.

No Air
by Jordin Sparks
Tell me how I'm supposed
to breathe with no air
If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took
my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
If there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me
To live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
To live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air